Hey Family
Just read Blair's blog today and I can certainly relate to his feelings. I have really been having a rough time too. I guess it is because we remember the special dates like holidays and the holidays last year were all at the time when J W and I were going through so much. Then of course as a parent, you always remember special times with your kids, which makes me realize I am one short this year. As Blair said, I have already been dreading Mike's BD coming up. I'm sure everyone gets tired of hearing about the sadness but I can only say what I feel and who better to say it to than my family. Like Blair, Thanksgiving was very nice and was with lots of family but it just had that cloud hanging over it. Maybe once we get past all the special days once, it will get easier??? All I know is I have no desire to put up a Christmas tree or anything. You young ones can go on with your Christmas for all the precious grandchildren (and you should) because this is all new and wonderful to them. Make memories with them and I am content to just remember all of my memories when I was young, with Mother and then my young married life with Dalmer and having my babies and then my older years with J W. God, it seems like I have lived forever. It is strange but most people can always remember where they spent nearly every Christmas of their life. Can you?? Do you have a favorite one??

Megan is gone today to take Michael for his doctor checkup. He is 2 months old now and so cute. It was good Thanksgiving to get Kittie's babies and Gary's babies together for a few minutes. They are the next generation. It is hard for me to realize that I am the oldest generation now. Where did everyone go?? Better get back to work. It is so cold here today and cold wind blowing. A good day to stay inside. Love you all, Maw