It is early morning about 3:40. I have slept the last bit I can. Of course I went to sleep around 9:00, so guess that is pretty good. I am working 10 hour days this week, so that I can be off this Friday to attend John Watsons pharmacy school graduation. I plan on leaving after work on Thursday and going to Waco and then Friday morning to Austin. I will probably be back here in Ft Worth either on Friday night or Saturday Morning. I have open house again this Sunday afternoon on the house, so I will need to do some more prep and clean up work on it. Everythings is just about out and hoping, not much more to do except to clean it up sometimes for people walking through it. Mikes pickup sits in the driveway, until open house and then I move it to Aprils or Blairs, then back again. I wish I could come and visit the cemetary soon. I think I need that, even though I know he is not there. I know Mike is at peace and very very happy, but the last eight months of our lives together were probably the best times we had ever had together. We sat and talked and learned so much about each other, that we had never taken the time to share. We had had some beautiful moments together and I just want more. Valentines Day was the most heartwarming experience I have ever experienced. This was our first HOLIDAY EVER TOGETHER AS HUSBAND AND WIFE and he made our last one together so so special and beautiful. We had some very hard and trying times together but we also had some very loving and special times together also. How can it get easier, we were together almost evey day for 34 years. Mike and I were learning how to be best friends as well as soul mates. I guess I am lucky in that we did get to have some of this time together. Not all are that fortunate. I do know that he loved me and he tried so hard to make me know just that. We wished we had come to Ft Worth so many years earlier and maybe we would of had so many more years of this, but you just dont know. I have to keep going as I know he would want me to, but some times the pain is so hard to bear. He was not perfect, as I am not, but I loved him with all my heart and I will never ever quit missing and loving him. Eletia