It is good to hear from Maw and Kittie. I wish I could say or do more. It seems all I do is go to work and go back to Blairs, Jareds or Aprils. It is really good to have such three lovely caring places to go to. Most of the time I am just running. Running and running, from what I dont know. To what I dont know. I find myself crying a lot of the time, just because. I dont really know where home is. I know what I want home to be but it will never be again. I have nearly beat up some ass. I have to be careful or all my frustrations will come out on some unexpected and unknowing person. I try to be strong, but some days, I just cry. Monday was a horrible day and if anyone talked to me I just cried. I know people at work will be glad if and when I get it all together. I miss Mike so much. I thought it would get better daily, but it doesnt. I have learned to go on and that is just that. Go on today. If not for my sweet kids and babies, what would I be? I finally got the acknowledgements out and it felt good to do this. I still have got no news from insurance or any indications if I will. Oh well, I am trying to just keep what we had and try not to go under to far. I have had several showings on the house, but as of yet either the back yard is too small or the house is too big. Of course nothing I can do about this. I got a real good surprise on my cell phone bill. $800., Hummm. Hopefully I got it half way figured out. Every time I turn around there is something. This is partly what keeps me so busy and upset, just wish Mike could handle it. He handled everything!!! I will try to let you guys know when the head stone is ordered and maybe when I will be back down. Would like to come now, but will have to wait, due to gas. Sorry this is such a downer, but.........
Love to you all. Eletia